those people know what its like to be alone on a friday nite with nothing to do! just like ME!
im just sitting here, wishing a(XX) wasnt out of state, or that someone would pick me up. or my mother didnt go to home depot with her boyfriend and wouldve taken me someplace like target or walmart...arg! i just wanna do something! all the cute guys are at the format show...i havent heard from P(xy) in about two days. meh. hes so pissy. im getting kind of sick of him. (him him him) oh well. hes nice in person, not on the internet.

i wish i had a lot of money so i could buy a ton of stuff! yesterday, i went out with L(xy) and i looked for a job. no such luck. maybe journeys. i hope i hope i hope! thatd be cool. i like shoes. and id get discount on diesels there...but id be considered "emo" if i got em. oh fuck that, dood. i dont care what people think of me. if theyre comfortable, thats all that matters. they look nice too. i want to buy lots of cute japanese stationary. and my footlocker. so i can put my stickers on it. and new pumas. and domokun. san-x. get my car goin. nice pants. nice make up. i want to be materialistic for a day! i think i deserve something new. used used used. well, i like used. but some of my friends consider "new" horrible. i dont. oh well. lemme be materialistic...

ive been eating too much. my stomache wont get full. it finally is now, but im drinking a soda and feeling gross and bloated. last week, i was 125. now im like, about 130 again. im afraid of weight gain. im about the size i wanna be, i cant let it go!

im going to LA in a few weeks. ill finally get to meet N(xy) i cant wait!! ill be leaving, meeting a cool guy, getting to shop, ill get to DRIVE out there, and it wont be super long. sometimes i cant stand to spend time with my father, cause he expects me to do everything he asks of me...
i feel like a geek. i now have a neopet. its not all cutesy like the other ones. its devilish. very kozik like. her name is koziminx. (it was going to be mink..that was taken..was going to be kozik..that was taken..minx was taken..mix em. boom. done)
maybe ill find some way to entertain myself, besides this goddamn computer...arg!
-jo