so y(xy) left this morning. i had to walk over to travel lodge at 7..man..it was crazy. i walked fast over there...but doddled home and was an innocent standby-er in a T-bone crash. i took pictures, discreetly of course. so what if im a tinge morbid?

so we said goodbye. i gave him a really girly hug. up on the tiptoes. one arm around the neck. one arm around the torso...letting go letting the hands slide all about. all guys love hugs like that. well...the ones that have told me they do..i do like touching people. especially boys. tee hee hee..*dons knee socks*

siiiiigghh..todays been semi dreamy, but cloudy....waking up early...later, crashing for 5 hrs. i just took some pills to knock me out. its pissing me off, my sister is awake during the day now....but that means i can stay up late on here. thats cool. but that means i cant watch TV during the day.
bitch.

so P(XY) and i have been talking...its like exactly what i want. he was drunk tonite, saying he thought about me the whole drive home (drinking and driving...*marge groan*) *siiiiiiiigh* i cant wait to see him again. im like his lolita. thats how i kinda feel. just running up and hanging on him....he sent me pics of himself. he looks all scruffy. this one adorable pic of him kissing a cat..aww...

A(XX) IS HOME!!!!!!!! YAAAAAY! I havent seen her in FOREVER! shes coming over tomarrow at 6pm, after her family looks at this house..they might move (??) into the historical district a block away from me, by my nana+papa. how cool would that be?! alene in the historical district! then id have an excuse to hang out at the art deco neighborhoods and take pics of the old catholic church! EE! and itd be easier to pick her up from school. yay.

today was strange. i took a 5 hr nap..i never take naps. i took it in my sweater. and my hair all teased out. i like taking naps with make up on, cause it smudges my eyeliner perfectly, and i look like a kitten...sounds strange, but its true...

OH! how i need some money! it was horrible, cause the last week, everytime i said that to someone, they suggested that i give Y(xy) a handjob...or blowjob..or whatever. how horrible. dirty fucks! i wont be looking for a job again til oct or nov, due to working seasons....xmas and all. ill get one. ill get my license after the LA trip. its all good. im growing up. i need not freak out like i was.

oh yeah, one last note Y(xy) smelled soooooo good, and he doesnt even wear a cologne...mm.