ahh..now i finally update about my trip...
so, i drove to LA this weekend. it was fabulous.
ut.ter.ly. fab.u.lous.

drove most of the way there, while my dad talked to me about his side of his familys history...apparently, my grandfather raped my uncle...a lot...and i didnt even know it...it was really horrible, and i was being a bit eccentric (but being able to hide it) cause i stayed up all nite, and got hepped up on xenadrine before i left.

drove straight to disneyland...blaaah. when we first got to the california adventure, i was sooooooper tired, and thinking of N(XY) and how i was supposed to call him asap...but i didnt til like 3...

sunday: meet up with N(XY) at 10am...i was sooo happy to see him. hes an awesome guy. kinda cocky. but we walked around all day. managed to break free from my dad after an hour or so...we mostly talked about sex, relationships, and his stay in japan...lots about fashion designers too.

then it was the suburban legends show in dtd. i was sooo stoked..but n(xy) wasnt really into it. he doesnt like ska that much..but i met up with some valley ska boys there, who were just chillin before the chain reaction show. A(xy) N(xy) and D(XY) as well as a few others that i dont know their names..(i should...damn) i met M(xy) there and it was fun. i had only talked to him two days prior to my trip, so as soon as he saw me, he gave me a big hug. he kept joking around and kept asking me if we were gonna make out...and i was like nawww..not now!! ahh!! but he kept going..i wouldve if n(xy) werent there. but he was. so we kept going back n fourth between sets. at around 730-8, we went into the park...talked MORE. he said it was time for my "punishment" (long story! hahah) so we went on the pirates of the carribean, cause we heard this one guy say "pirates eat bad little girls" and my hopes werent fufilled..aww..hahah...it was our second time riding it, and we "deja vu"d our conversations, and i said "were deja vu-ing!!" and he goes "but this time, itll be different" and he kissed me..FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!

we made out on a lot of other rides...it was so fucking classic! like some sort of dream come true....and his lipring...holy fuuuckinnnn shiiiit!!!! man...

the funny thing is, is that i dont feel really bad...i mean with P(xy) and all..i mean, we arent "official" and hes so far away, and he did kiss his ex before he left and all...so i have the right...

now the thing with M(xy) too...m(xy) is a doll!! we talk online...

lots of guys have been like...being sweet to me lately..i dunno what the dill is. all these ska guys are like "you are so fucking gorgeous..blah blah blah"
i dunno whats up wtih it....its been the past few weeks...at first, it totally raised my confidence, now its getting kinda old, and i think that theyre saying it just to say it...i dunno...its starting to bug me...i dunno.

i start school on monday. its gonna be good but strange....hm..