schools back in session. and im getting sick (physically) can i hear a "fuck you"? (i love that song!!)
actually, today was good. i had two photos, and life drawing. life drawing is okay. i might switch out. i dunno. ill get to see naked people. yeah. fun.
yesterday was long and hard. a B day. anatomy, adv math, and fashion. fashion was AWESOME. im gonna be teachers pet! i know it. i must be. math and anatomy are going to be annoying. they want me to bring books every fuckin day. and ill have homework. every fuckin day.
the only thing i dont like about school is that it disrupts with the schedule I want. a late schedule. blaaah..thank god its now sat. today is the show. ill hang out with joe (maybe?) and itll all be good. i need to dance very well. i feel like attracting boys. maybe..?
im tired. and i want to be by myself. and sleep TONS. my throat hurts.
P(XY) was drunk when i last talked to him, and he really upset me. then, this morning, he sent me an email saying sorry, and that his ex whos visting family there was sleeping in the other room, and that he wished i was she.
hum.
personally, i thought that he was going to try to make the moves on her. i dont know. im not assuming anything, but im sure hes probably made out with a chick since hes been there at LEAST.psh.
i kinda miss having a boyfriend. someone to always cuddle with. to always hold hands with. to always be there for me. to talk to. etc. etc....*sigh*
its been two long years. one boyfriend. four hook ups. yeah. i want someone to be steady with. to lull myself to sleep in their chest. why isnt P(XY) here anymore? he was like that to me. its just painful to be fuckin alone again. cause thats how it feels it will always be.
well...i think im going to sleep...*sigh*
goodnite.
sweet dreams.
take care, world.
*mwah*