I occasionally find out things that bother me and disrupt my thoughts about people. People that have had their second chances,and have blown it. I found out that N(XY) did what he did to me to another girl. Gosh. That's fucking awful. I still feel like the worst person in the world. I always will.

I know I'm not quite adequete for anything or anyone anymore. I've had trouble sleeping and I cried a little last nite. Things just upset me and they shouldn't.

Sometimes I worry about what you've done to others.
And I lie awake thinking about how you set ablaze my morals. you accused me of lying, why would I even be trying to tell you the things I did tell you?

Youve been Once accused,
You've been twice tried,
you've succeeded and lied
father of two sins which started from within
and ate away all I've ever held close until I morally died.

My shot has been fired and I've fallen to my knees
cause you destroyed my second chance when I confessed my past, oh god, it's true. it wasn't ever meant to last.

I suck at writing and stuff. I should get better cause I'm going to be a singer, supposedly...
what's really been bothering me is some things about a man and feelings. I'm just unhappy now. with everyone. I need to feel a comfort again. I need someone to be there for me. that's all.