everything is better! he called me and made me feel better..he'll be coming out to visit in a few months...i cant wait. im better now.

yeah, im really tired. me and A(XX) didnt sleep much. my clock said it was 630am before i went to sleep this morning....we awoke to dmx..thanks to my sister...i thought shed turn it down, but i went out there, eyes puffed shut, and turned it down. i told her i was trying to sleep, and she called bullshit on me, and that i deserved to be awake, due to the reason that i kept HER awake all nite with my "giggling". what a childish bitch. we ended up getting physical, i wish i wouldve swung. i really do. no i dont...i do. no..yeah...maybe...but she slammed my hand in the cd player and put all of her weight into it, and it really stings. its small, but deep, and the tissue/muscles are sore around the area on top of my hand...ow. i called my mother, in the midst of all this, and she hung up on me. gah. thanks a lot, mummy!

im tired. and i wanna talk to p(xy) just cause im still semi bothered by the whole incident this morning, cause im embarassed and hurt. i wouldnt care if it werent in front of one of my friends...its so embarassing...i hate it when my family pulls shit like that in front of my friends, and my friends are totally freaked out...usually, when people meet me, they think im from some regular family.
depends on what you consider "regular", eh?

my stomach is feeling horrible, and i need to work out. im eating a horrible diet lately, since he left, drinking tons of soda, and not getting much walking or physical activity in whatsoever. i feel like a wad of cellulite in howard stern's ass.

maybe ill sleep..3 hrs aint so bad. is it?? uhh..ive been getting about 8-11 hrs a day, which is fabulous, considering during the schoolyear i get from 5-7.
and im stressed as fuck.
and i wake up early then.
and im really physically active..
yeah.
im a smart one.

maybe i will lie down for a bit? wake up and html this thing up the buuuuuutt.

but tomarrows my sisters party. i think ill wear my "blown" shirt and be an obnoxious bitch, except to my nana. she owns. hard.

so y(xy) left this morning. i had to walk over to travel lodge at 7..man..it was crazy. i walked fast over there...but doddled home and was an innocent standby-er in a T-bone crash. i took pictures, discreetly of course. so what if im a tinge morbid?

so we said goodbye. i gave him a really girly hug. up on the tiptoes. one arm around the neck. one arm around the torso...letting go letting the hands slide all about. all guys love hugs like that. well...the ones that have told me they do..i do like touching people. especially boys. tee hee hee..*dons knee socks*

siiiiigghh..todays been semi dreamy, but cloudy....waking up early...later, crashing for 5 hrs. i just took some pills to knock me out. its pissing me off, my sister is awake during the day now....but that means i can stay up late on here. thats cool. but that means i cant watch TV during the day.
bitch.

so P(XY) and i have been talking...its like exactly what i want. he was drunk tonite, saying he thought about me the whole drive home (drinking and driving...*marge groan*) *siiiiiiiigh* i cant wait to see him again. im like his lolita. thats how i kinda feel. just running up and hanging on him....he sent me pics of himself. he looks all scruffy. this one adorable pic of him kissing a cat..aww...

A(XX) IS HOME!!!!!!!! YAAAAAY! I havent seen her in FOREVER! shes coming over tomarrow at 6pm, after her family looks at this house..they might move (??) into the historical district a block away from me, by my nana+papa. how cool would that be?! alene in the historical district! then id have an excuse to hang out at the art deco neighborhoods and take pics of the old catholic church! EE! and itd be easier to pick her up from school. yay.

today was strange. i took a 5 hr nap..i never take naps. i took it in my sweater. and my hair all teased out. i like taking naps with make up on, cause it smudges my eyeliner perfectly, and i look like a kitten...sounds strange, but its true...

OH! how i need some money! it was horrible, cause the last week, everytime i said that to someone, they suggested that i give Y(xy) a handjob...or blowjob..or whatever. how horrible. dirty fucks! i wont be looking for a job again til oct or nov, due to working seasons....xmas and all. ill get one. ill get my license after the LA trip. its all good. im growing up. i need not freak out like i was.

oh yeah, one last note Y(xy) smelled soooooo good, and he doesnt even wear a cologne...mm.